change

taken seriously

what's your personality? is it in conflict with what you want to be? do you change to be what u've become.... of course.

case closed. :)

Things haven’t changed between us when we’re together. There is this certain spark between us. It’s hard to ignore. I try my best to not think about it, but it’s there. Unadulterated chemistry. I’ve never felt that with another guy before and until now, to be so thrilled and alive at that moment. It makes me just want to play and be happy and just touch him and smile at him and tease him. Such a powerful and intense emotion. Is that love?

What makes it less special for me is when I think about how he’s like that to a LOT of girls. It’s not just me. I guess this chemistry is not really between me and him, but him purely. He has this way of making girls swoon and just be so flirty and playful with him. And that’s why I shouldn’t capitalize on this. I shouldn’t build it up into something very special. He’s special. That’s it. I’m glad I was a part of that spark.

michael buble

just discovered this cool singer - sounds so much like frank sinatra. awesome! it's gratifying that somehow the music of the 50s or 60s (i don't really know!) gets replayed so that each generation will have a portion of the past decades.

i love how it's so upbeat with a collection of different instruments - instruments you don't hear in the latest songs - their generation's type of guitars, drums. it's exhilirating and an "ear-opener", introducing different types of sounds to your senses. and i haven't even started with his voice.

his voice is so cool, a soothing sound to the senses. the low tone of his voice is sexy and seems to flirt with the listener but the cool timbre implies aloofness = giving mixed messages of what the singer is like, what the singer wants to bring out from the listener.

i guess just the mood of the song plus the voice brings images of the old times with their classic elegance and exciting essence.

it's really a combination of a lot of things which gives the listener a whole bunch of experiences.

Stuck

how do you get out of a job that you don’t want? This isn’t a simple case of not loving your work but a bad case of being misled into accepting the job with the promise of getting what you requested for. It’s too long a sentence for you to comprehend but it’s all there.

There’s a feeling of betrayal that this job was offered in a façade of fulfilled promises. But underneath it, a different goal was achieved that would be beneficial to the company, not at all what I desired for.

What do I do? I resent this.

weird. just a note. I write too much mba papers that I sound too business-like about something so personal, it’s scary! I just want it not to sound too emotional. oh well...

another friday

how come people are bound by an unspoken rule that they should have something to go to on friday night? i think it comes with our culture. our race loves to have fun but why friday? why not saturday?

as for me, i'll be visiting my mom who's in the hospital. what's wrong with her? she feels so much better when she's in the hospital. i'm no doctor but my guess is that all she has is the common cold and a dash of depression. that's one thing i'm mulling over. how can i help her?? how do i control my feelings of "irritation" when she's acting so helpless again?

oh well. so many thoughts. next time again.